18, white, they/them,
ace, bi, enby, fluid, gay, masc, queer
GUESS WHO GOT TOP SURGERY YESTERDAYYYYYY
I’m going to sf pride today I’m very excited 😎😎😎
It’s homophobic transphobic the my girlfriend is in Italy rn tho :(((
I helped run a thing teaching teachers how to do design thinking and one of the participants was a nonbinary robotics coach and I didn’t realize how much I needed to see an older nonbinary person in robotics that I could look up to
I have such long work days and I crashed out over college scheduling last night and my girlfriend is in Italy so no hugs and she isn’t around half the time when I wanna talk to her :(
We did call for a while last night and that was really really nice and I felt way better after
Her flight left for Italy like an hour ago, I saw her last night, but I miss her already, it’s gonna be a long 2 weeks :((
One foot in front of the other
One step after another
That’s all I can manage lately
As life is flying by
A million miles a minute
A billion moments at a time
It’s all going to fast
I want to freeze it all
Stop in each moment
And feel everything
Bask it in before it’s all gone
She’s just so amazing, she’s gonna keep me company post top surgery, reminds me to take off my binder when I wear it too long, listens to me complain about dysphoria, switches up my pronouns when I ask (genderfluid) and just is the best gf a trans guy could ask for
Don’t do it
But if you’re gonna
Call me
And I promise I’ll answer
But what if I can’t convince you
And you’re gone forever
I don’t think I could live with myself
My period cramps are killinggggg me rn why does my body hate me so much
That’s it that’s the post I have a gf and I love her and (she’s cis but) she’s so good with all the trans stuff
Maybe this once was home
When home was just my parents
When I was actually safe here
When this was all I knew
Now we drive the long open roads
Looking out at all the flat empty space
And I feel a sense of familiarity
But it’s not home anymore
I just started watching arcane and it seems really cool so far. I may or may not be watching it because my crush recommended it but I am actually interested now, also it’s not like I need an excuse to text her we’ve actually been hella texting lately and it makes me very happy
I love robotics but man do I hate getting up this early
So I’ve told my friends about my crush,,, they mostly approve but it’s also become obvious how not subtle I am and uh my (and my crush’s) robotics coach knows I have a crush now and is invested in helping my other teammate figure out who it is, I’m so head over heals for her,,,
I woke up this morning and genuinely couldn’t remember if last night was dream, but I check my text history and it wasn’t !! I spent 3 hours almost constantly texting with herrrrr I went to bed with the biggest smile on my face
She’s leaving on a flight tomorrow for London and so I’m not gonna see her for over a week :(( even worse she’s gonna be in a way different time zone so texting will be hard too :(( imma miss her and she has no clue lol
I’m so so tired, I have an insanely hectic week and I still have to make it through 2 full days of stuff before I get a solid break
For now it’s a fantasy
One I can enjoy
But a fantasy none the less
An idea wrapped around my mind
Something to entertain me
Something to comfort me
Something to dream about
Maybe someday
I can fall asleep beside her
And awake to
The sound of her laughter
Anytime I have a moment to pause
She’s in my head
I see her smile
I see her in my shirt a bit too big for her
I hear her laughter
I feel her arms around me
I imagine what could be
If I was bold enough to tell her
And if by some miracle she felt the same
The sound of her laughter
Echos in my ears
I can’t help but think of it
When I think of her
And I can’t help but think of her
She’s always on my mind
A peaceful speck
In a chaotic world
I wonder if she feels the same
If she thinks of me
Even a bit as often as
I think of her
The weather is so gloomy rn and I love it, or rather I would be in heaven if I could curl up with a good book or tv show (maybe in the arms of someone I love) but instead I have to go to soccer and get absolutely drenched in the rain and freeze in the wind
Like I do care for all trans people out there, and I care so so much for all my trans friends, and like maybe that’s the problem, maybe I care too much and the only way I can handle it is by focusing on other things
My school had an assembly about suicide prevention today, it didn’t hit me as hard as I expected, idk if that’s a good thing or not, it made it easier to get though the day but shouldn’t I care more, especially with it being tdor shouldn’t I be sad not burying myself in robotics
She was cold and I was hot so wore my long sleeve shirt earlier and aaaa, she’s like an inch taller than me but I’m broader and like my shits baggier so it big on her and she looked so cute in it, I really wanna see her in my clothes againnnnn
Sometimes when I’m scrolling I feel like the odd one out being ace on this app, but then I have lovely conversations with y’all and it’s so chill to chat w/ other trans people <3
Trans people in my phone send me motivation to do my homework and write my essays pleaseeee
Shit I get butterflies when she texts me I’m so screwed y’all I like her so much aaaa
Things are actually going way better than I expected with the robot I did not expect my team to have finished by our comp this coming Saturday
Good morning little trans people in my phone, I hope all y’all have a good day today!
I’m so reading way more into all our interactions than I should be but I really want there be smth there, and another friend was texting with her and my crush apparently said “bless [my name] bro” which def doesn’t mean anything… but what if it did…
I hung out with her a bit this afternoon and imitated like casual physical contact like a hand on her shoulder or whatever and SHE LEANED INTO ME that was such a good feeling man, also after I left she texted me and we had a text conversation about random stuff not just robotics
I have two different kinds of tests in my morning classes today, hopefully I’m prepared? Wish me luck lol
Dm me if you wanna talk about Star Trek (any and all series!!) it’s my favorite tv show and I just love this universe and all my space gays <33