20, white, Gemini, he/him, Fort Atkinson, Wisconsin, United States
bi, butch, enby, fag, ftm, man, monog, queer
a good conversation with a friend fixes everything
my life has felt ao slow and depressing lately.. i know things are getting better and theres good things coming but theres so much to wait for too... top surgery save me...
i want to be able to feel more secure in myself in a way that seems to only come with age. i want to feel normal, like i have a place in the world and in communities and around other adults but it feels so difficult at 19
a movie, and i know the tropes and stuff that will happen and the outcomes of certain actions and knowing everything will come to and end eventually but forcing myself to do things to advance the plot anyways even tho it feels like it will only cause me future grief. or just me?
is actually fulfilling my needs rn. i might not be ready for a relationship but i really like what i have going on with my friend... i love trans people sm and theres more options than just dating when it comes to connection ..:3
when i listen to IT GIRL by aliyahs interlude. then im the it girl
by laying on the floor wrapped in a blanket
its really the only thing i know how to do. but creating trans positive art has value in the community. i hope lol. i wish i knew how to spread my art better..
in my area but i dont think im ready to do it yet. im mid semester in college and my grandma still sends me money via check and she doesnt know im trans but i do want her money.. and then theres everything else that id have to update my name with. i wish i was ready tho.
my doctor slowly increased my dosage till its at the level it is now (bc we were worried ab other aspects of my health being affected) rather than starting at this dosage. so now im like *really* going. anyways might jerk off again today LOL
my hrt is only now kicking it into high gear after a year of being on it. ive only now started to get significant acne, much larger appetite, and most notably an insatiable, hand-humping, jerking-off-multiple-times-a-day horniness. 😵💫😵💫😵💫🐕
i keep forgetting the hrt makes me actually have the appetite of a pubescent boy and that yes, i can eat when im hungry even tho i ate whatever before. cause im a growing boy!
i made this poster for my design class and i wanted general thoughts on it, and specifically whether it feels too negative and if posting it on social media would depress people. ‼️tw transphobia
https://imgur.com/a/Iv7wW8x
but i guess its fetish hour. uh i have a huge intox kink... i love thinking about getting high and needy, jerking off while high is the best <3 thats all ill post publicly on here for now LOL
has been distraction honestly. i know theres so many issues and things to worry about but my brain might combust so i have to distract myself and try to do other things
so many trans people name themselves after gods and divine/mythological figures. like yes you are a goddess or god or angel or hero!! you are divine!!
i desperately wish i was capable of having something comforting to tell others and myself but i am at a loss
are gonna be threatened in the us? genuinely wondering cause if they are gonna be then i want to get it done asap
puppy chow on my tits !
for a good snack. make sure to feet all your puppy subs puppy chow
i feel like this app rn is sitting around a warm fire waiting out a storm. i love you all you are worthy and important and my siblings
still high.. desperately craving eggo cinnamon french toast waffles but i dont have any.... i want smth buttery.... send help
it would be nice to be able to meet people who actually live in my area lol. wisconsin anyone??
i dont really beleive in it i just do readings for fun, but i did one that predicted heartbreak for my friend (3 of swords), and today they told me they were on a break with their partner of 3yrs. ive never had such an immediate response to a reading before...
trans people are worth everything to me i love you all
i had trouble sleeping last night because i was being pissed off at something that happened yesterday and it reminded me of my trauma 😭 im fine now but god im tired.