26, white-skinned mxican, Capricorn, he/they,
ace, enby, fag, ftm, man, neuro, queer, ???
Yeah idek anymore. I just… I’m doing good but it feels like a superficial kind of good.
I can’t cry and I feel off.
I feel that the only thing I seem to be able to feel is ‘okay’ and ‘happy’, but I don’t really feel like that deep deep inside.
Fill me with suicidal intent.
It’s getting weird and I feel very off
And I’m thinking abt stuffff and I can’t stop getting distracted and I hate it a fucking much
I wanna tell my friend that I think of him as my best friend, but idk if I should bc ik he doesn’t think of me like that (which is okay) and I don’t wanna make him uncomfortable or feel bad (bc I’m not his).
Should I tell him?
Are ppl actually getting partners from this app?!? TT
Feeling extremely unlucky 🥀 /lh
God I feel so very raw. And I feel I can’t even talk abt it bc it’s stupid and childish maybe. I feel only kids are allowed to feel this much abt this kind of stuff… and yet.
Idk. Idk what to make of any of this or if there’s anything to make of it.
Does anyone has any experience on full dose of T + DHT blockers?
I’ve been in low dose for a year and I’m thinking of upping my dose but I’m having second doubts.
I’m feeling not great and I need comfort, so if someone could maybe… yeah idk
I feel like a freak but not in a fun hot way. I just—fuck. I wish I’d stop feeling and talking and tripping over my words and thoughts and and and and and and and and and and
I feel I’m too mentally ill to able to be loved? Like romantically…
Sometimes I’m afraid that they’ll see how… well, unstable am in general and just yk? And it’s not like I snap at them or anything like that, I just fear they’ll see me as a burden or smth worse.
Guess it all comes down to that in some way or another. It’s just a feeling that follows me over and over and over again.
If you use one, which one do u use? I’m looking for one that’s free (or if it’s not free that it’s free version is kinda functional enough).
I need to track my moods and yeah… :)
Half of the time I don’t see the point
It’s stupid, but I didn’t have the best day, it’s been some weird couple of days.
I watched a show today, one I love but the episode was sad. I wanted to watch it.
I thought I wasn’t doing that bad, but now I feel really really really weird. I’m spriling.
I’m wearing my ghost earrings :)
Sometimes I forget she’s straight, not like in a weird way, but she sometimes does like very “straight girl stuff” and then I’m like duh she’s a straight girl 💀
I’m a clown today :•)
Kinda feeling good abt my costume, might post later.
Like my head is running a bit, but it’s not really, but it kinda is, but not really. I just wanna do and say so many things, but I feel a keep vomiting my thoughts all over the place and they are hard to grasp and they are overwhelming and I don’t wanna be annoying, but I just…
I’m not drowning in it, it doesn’t tumbles me down or anything alike. But it’s there, looming over me and only showing up when it’s quiet and I’m alone. Idk if that makes it more or less real. I just feel weird and I have no one to tell ig, idek what’s there to tell.
I feel like my brain is like an egg:
Sometimes it’s scrambled, everything in a mesh.
Sometimes it’s like a cracked egg, with the shell and yolk splattered on the floor.
And sometimes it’s like a boiled egg, with everything thing in place, clear and simple.
NOOOOOOOOOO
The movie I wanted to go watch is not longer in theaters T T
I didn’t go yesterday bc I thought it was too late (8:40), so I didn’t want to go home super late. Now the only showing near me is an hour away and at 9:15 😭😭😭
I feel weird rn, lonely. Idk, I feel off.
What should I make. Wouldn’t post it here, maybe I will idk. But, vote!
🌀 Carrd
🧶 Strawpage
🌻 Rentry
I really wish I could do a slutty costume for Halloween, but idk how without feeling dysphoric. Like I could show off but that would make me look fem, and so idk what to wear :(
Open to suggestions, kinda need them <\3
I just wanna write or read, or maybe do a thing from ages old to-do list. I hate it here.
I know I’m annoying.
I talk to much. Think too much. Feel too much.
I’m too awkward. I’m a smartass at times.
Idk. I feel weirdly annoying.
Taimi a shot again? Idek what I’m doing, but ig I’m feeling lonely. It was a hellhole, most dating apps are so idk
Wdym I’m sleepy at 11pm!! Its so early T T
Pls give me back my time <\3
If someone likes you or is just being nice? In general, but also specially if you have been friends for a while?
Well… so ugly I can hardly stand it. Idk if I am or not. Objectively maybe I’m not, but guess that doesn’t matter. I wish… I was different, I don’t wish for a different face… I just wish I didn’t feel ugly.
Are they my words to reclaim or… not? Can i use them, like yk, in a queer way? What’s the consensus? /gen
My boss is blasting music again. And okay, it’s not techno this time (a little act of mercy from god), but still is like :p
It gets me overwhelmed so fucking fast it makes me genuinely angry 💀💀💀
I feel a childish level of possessiveness. The petty “this is mine, don’t touch it” bitter ugly feeling.