20, white/ashkenazi, Gemini, it/mirror pronouns,
ace, androg, lesbian, system, ???
as long as i am interesting to those who hate me
before u msg me keep these in mind:
- i have EXTREME bpd
- don't try to be kind bc i cant reciprocate and feel guilty
- if i am "nice" i am MASKING! tell me to stop
- i refuse to get better on my own, so unless you want to fix me you WILL be frustrated
- tolerant of all
a borderline underweight qt3.14 theyfriend that is too weak to fight back so you can just kinda use it as a sex doll even though its sex repulsed
genuinely mindset problems. most things i say i "can't" do are just things i "won't" so
its fine that im too disabled to earn my place in the world. its okay that i will never be able to reciprocate the kindness i demand from others. theres nothing wrong with me. haha
i will make sure i get raped and beaten and abused so much and i will make sure they know its their fault
when i climb the stairway of success
got confirmation that everyone in my previous apartment did in fact solely resent me for occupying the space i paid rent for. good to know i did nothing wrong there and was actually just being emotionally abused for being an "outsider" of the group
call that mr breast
now ive got a system of eunuchs 💯
i find most if not all foods kinda gross so getting enough calories in my body is an endless chore that i just cant keep up with. probably had 750/day on average at best and i can tell im losing weight. i can see my ribs. i dont know what to do. i have no will to eat
i think im an heir of light (〜￣▽￣)〜
1) 27
2) 3
3) 7
4) 413
5) 2
i want to beat the shit out of my 10 year old self for refusing to learn actual programming so now its too late for me to learn the skills i would need to be a "real" programmer. i have no more motivation, i dont see myself living long enough to learn anything.
too dissociated to properly feel/reciprocate it
smoke half a menthol and cry myself to sleep tonight
i will find "my Spark" alone in my room. Maybe
what's in my pants? my wallet‼️
feeling like nonbinary rokos basilisk rn
and come use debian with a lesbian
everything is either google images or shopping when u boil it down
like why do i have to do this every day or i become too tired to move?
lmk if ur the area ^_^ i want to get out more
been really focused in on writing a dress up game with my art and it's a lot of funnn ^_^ i feel like my mind merges with my computer a little when i code :-o
ive been going by shrine lately but i also like the idea of something weird like wifi or email
and someone to wrap them around :-v
i want to be a g4 cube
and i am honestly ecstatic, i just hope i get a window seat ^_^
i'll sublet from the guy trapped in the bean
take airplanes from boneyards. nobody's even using them right
i wish vulnerability didnt make me feel sick i miss being a person i miss being the right kind of freak
This heat wave's been killing me, I can barely think unless I'm actively pouring cold water onto my face