32, white, Pisces, they/he, Latrobe, Pennsylvania, United States
androg, enby, ftm, neuro, pan, queer
Winter is always harder for me emotionally, but I can't wait for the cold weather! Why tf is it 80 in the middle of spooky season??!! I'm a sweaty mess since starting T, I just want it to be cold already 😭
I've been in trauma therapy for a while, but I feel like I'm making minimal progress. I've suspected I might have adhd & this is the second therapist who thought the same. I think I might & my symptoms are interfering with my therapy. I'm gonna talk to her about getting diagnosed
Seasonal depression is already hitting, so I set a goal. I'm gonna make writing a habit so that I can finally finish the book I started years ago. Idc if its ever published; I just want to be able to say I wrote a book.
A regular customer got me off to the side and asked if I was transitioning. She mentioned having 2 trans kids. Then told me that I have her support and if I ever need anything, I can ask her. Omg, I'm so lucky to have had more positive interactions than negative here
"For someone born female, you're not a girl's girl!"
Also, I have nothing against women at all. But I definitely don't like transphobic assholes like you...
Apparently, the two guys at work (early 20s) are jealous of my facial hair. I'm sorry for them that they're having a hard time growing theirs out, but that made me so happy to hear
Had to tell another cis guy off and block him on another app cuz he "likes trans guys who are just starting transition." If you want a woman, go find that. Stop fetishizing us as your little fem toys and acting disappointed that I fucking pass.
I realized I stopped donating blood months ago because of fear of being outed. I finally, for the most part, pass as a guy. But I haven't changed my name. I understand the red cross needs my legal name, but I emailed them, asking if they can also add a preferred name option.
Taking the beast for a walk in the rainy woods. Then, I'm gonna cuddle with her and the cats and watch a horror movie
The supreme court is gonna rule on whether conversion therapy bans are constitutional or not. Considering the majority love sucking the orange dick, I'm just assuming they're gonna say conversion therapy bans are unconstitutional....
I saw some assbole saying trans isn't a thing, its just that "autogynophilia" bs. I asked him how that's supposed to work for trans men like me, and he couldn't even answer. Fucking hateful trolls
Seasonal depression is already hitting me since I have several traumas surrounding this time of the year. I've been emotionally frozen, feeling like a hurt little kid again, procrastinating and distancing myself for protection. Guess its good I have therapy today. Idk how to heal
Normally I'm pretty good with not being too bothered about people using the wrong language in regards to me. But that old guy calling me dear today really bothers me. In my area, men usually only call women things like that...
I have a beard, why are some of these old men still calling me dear??? 😭
So many other queer people at the concert
A customer just gave me one of those little Jesus loves you dolls. "Everyone needs a little Jesus." No, we don't. Can I just work without having religion shoved down my throat?
I'm so excited to see her in concert again tonight! I'll be a zombie tomorrow from lack of sleep, but worth it! She's so good live. I love her so much
Saw a few out by the courthouse last night with a giant progress pride flag. Didn't expect that in our area
Does the US have to get before I can seek asylum elsewhere? 🤔
My state's courts decided that a DUI with a kid in the car isn't an automatic child endangerment. Yet society is somehow super worried about trans people "preying" on kids? You fuckers don't care about kids 🙄
I know it'll look "bad", but I'm not going to the funeral. No offense to him. I never came out to them, & I don't wanna deal with coming out/explaining myself at a funeral. I don't want the drama from my psycho cousin. & I'm already getting flashbacks of other funerals. I can't
But it feels like I pass better at work than elsewhere. I've been getting the right language at work, but if I'm out in public, I tend to get more weird looks. My work clothes are more neutral, personal stuff is more fem, and I think that might be why...
I will now only refer to him as The Royal Idiot.
Almost, anyway. A while ago, I decided not to buy everything second-hand (except underwear & socks ofc). It's really hard to find men's pants that fit me at thrift stores, so I bought women's. I don't mind that too much, but why do they always make the pockets so tiny???
Is already starting to hit me, it seems. It's gonna be a long winter. Yay mental illness...
Does anyone know anything about it or is involved with it? I've tried reaching out multiple times to be a volunteer, yet I never hear anything back. It just confuses me, since their site says its in such high demand now...
I despise the idea of camping & I feel guilty. I know he's prob not gonna go by himself or someone else. I like being outside & going hiking. But to stay out there for days? I'm too anxious & lazy, that just sounds like hell. & if I'm in a bad mood, it won't be fun for him either
Just heard about the plan to try and label trans advocacy as terrorism. My anxiety is spiraling now, so I'm just gonna take my anxiety and sleep pills and hope I just fall asleep and forget all this for a bit...
At the utility guys. They put up the rest of my fairy garden stuff that I had just sitting in a pile under the tree. Guess they needed something to do on break? I can't even be mad about that, it just made me laugh
There's utility workers parked in the driveway, blocking the cars in. And they're just having a nice relaxing time under my tree. I wanted to spend time outside with my dog, on my property, but sure, use it as your own. (In my state, I have no legal right to kick them out)
Tonight. I kind of want to go protest somehow. But I also live in a rural area filled with crazy, orange-worshipping rednecks, so there's a chance my husband & I would be hate-crimed...
Each other in a more open area, why wouldn't you just let us finish crossing the narrow bridge before crossing with yours? Nothing happened. Thena was good as I held her against the guard rail. But like why?
On the way to the park, she stood on the center console. I told her to sit down, but all she did was her scream-whine right in my ear. She is like an energetic, rebellious child