28, white, she/her, Tempe, Arizona, United States
bi, femme
to my last post. (yet, i guess).
that's fine.
i'll be fine.
one person, without any posts, messages me and said "hello".
... that definitely feels like a scammer/bot. idk tho
could anyone please 'react' to this post. like, at all.
i just don't want to feel invisible...
feel okay?
do other people feel okay?
like. sometimes? often, even?
i don't get it anymore. i'm just hanging on to... eventually feel it again?
sorry. i don't even think that's how i really feel.
can't put it into words
i guess.
planned parenthood is "pausing" their Gender Affirming Services. don't know the exact legal reason. or if it's a nationwide thing. or what.
but i've gotta switch back to ordering it online i guess. if they won't prescribe it.
anyways, death to fascism.
edit: unpaused
at a dubstep show.
for a friend
(i don't... really care about dubstep)
more miserable than everyone else.
why didn't anyone help me?
ha.
i know why actually. it's fine. or, idk. i can accept it. it's a normal sort of thing. that humans and the world are just. this way.
idk forget it. sorry for being annoying and "edgy" or whatever.
(i mean it)
worthless
(spironolactone)
want to call me baby:
then, go ahead now
if you want to tell me maybe:
then, go ahead now
if you want to buy me flowers:
then, go ahead now
if you want to talk for hours:
then, go ahead now
I'm fine. sorry
please. i just want attention. i just want to feel like i'm not annoying... like i'm not a burden. For Once
sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry
edit: bad post. that's a fair assessment. i am that desperate. i don't know what to do
Girl Next Door: (is a theme for either/both noelle and dess holiday)
the Gaster's Theme part of Girl Next Door: 🔥🎸🎶
familiar with the 'halimede' twitter account?
are you aware of the game (er, well, visual novel) that the character halimede comes from?
it's Heaven Will Be Mine.
and i'd strongly recommend it, as well as it's predecessor We Know The Devil
an old prescription bottle (those orange ones) as a shot glass
(is that cool? am i cool yet?)
edit: the parenthetical at the end isn't my favorite. idk. also, i don't have a regular shot glass. so... that's the reason. this edit is bad, too... that's fine tho
the jerma vod that was just uploaded to youtube.
confirmed to myself that apple flavored whiskey is still the best.
...feeling okay, for the moment
so, what should i eat:
🔪 frozen pizza (supreme)
🌀 chicken tortilla soup (store bought, heated in the microwave)
remember those automatic coupon dispensers that would be mounted to the shelves of grocery store aisles? from over 15 years ago?
(you would take one, and it dispened another.)
as a kid, i used to take a coupon as we walked by each of one
my cat has been sick. i'm currently at a 'quality of life check-in' appointment with her. she has serious kidney issues. she's... probably going to be put down in a few minutes
she's 16 y/o. i'll miss her when she's gone... but it's especially sad to see her in such a state...
feel like i have no one...
why is everyone gone...
it hurts too much
i can't be this alone anymore. all i want is to be with someone forever...
it's no one's fault i guess. maybe not even mine. but it's really too much
since the first season of Adventure Zone. and the mcelroys were posting stuff to polygon's youtube channel
random thought i guess
i'm nostalgic too often.
(& pretty sure i'm plural? haven't figured it out rly. i wonder if whoever was host back then is reminiscing? me? i am ...?
i did, on the art academy 'game' for wii u. it's from years ago... (and one of my old roommates stole my wii u, so...)
if i ever want to try an art academy game again, i'll have to find (and mod) my 3ds
https://litter.catbox.moe/e44jts.jpg
posting this old selfie because my shirt is rad. the selfie was horrible tho... (so i cropped it). and now i'm feeling bad about what i was like in the past.
i still have the shirt, but i haven't seen it in a long time
https://litter.catbox.moe/agziy1.jpg
right now. i either feel almost nothing, or i feel extremely sad... i'm not okay. and i haven't been okay in so long...
i don't really know how to keep going. i'll be fine i guess. but it hurts, and it won't stop
some bad and serious things have happened...
(one of my cats is sick. it's serious...)
(and, separate from that, my friend said some really messed up things to me. over the course of several hours. it was very overwhelming. i kind of fell apart. still trying to be okay...)