26, white jewish, Scorpio, they/he, Peterborough, England, United Kingdom
aro, butch, disabled, enby, ftm, lesbian, system, ???
🎥 Everyone thinks you’re awesome and funny.. sorry.
🅿️ When you stop thinking “I can’t do that, that’s weird” or judging yourself for having obvious autistic traits.
Like you gotta find more autistic people to hang out, who you can really unmask around, and life gets so much better. Espesually if they’re also gay trans furries.
🅿️ And where so chill and nice about it.
Like I was dissociating like hell, in and out constantly, and they where so nice.
I guess I don’t have to say “I have brain damage” anymore to explain it to some people. Phew.
📺 Pester was working with one of the smaller alters.. when suddenly we merged?
I feel like I’m partially a seal and a TV? At the same time?
And I have memories of playing in the ocean?
…How can I swim without short circeting?! I need to feel the waves!
🅿️ If you knew the kind of autistic kid we where growing up, a 5 year old arsonist bug makes perfect sense.
That kid was like a wild roaming creature, loved running and causing trouble. Climbing everything. Loved Bonfire night..
Kinda sad thinking about it..
🅿️ …It’s a 5 year old bug who likes to set things on fire.
And it kept doing it until we told it off, and our dad had to move the fire outside.
I think it was just staring at this fire for like 20 minutes until it snuffed out.
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🎲 The British goverment is bothering me on discord.. fuck offff
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🎲 I don’t caareeeee
This is like, 1982 or whatever
🪳 Setting fire to tissues cause it’s fun :)
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🪳 Got too big so I smothered it with water
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🎥 So I’m thinking.. maybe us being a system has something to do with this projection of sentience into objects?
Cause we have alters who exclusively live in our hands (when they front).
It wouldn’t be a stretch if we’ve had alters living in toys or puppets before..
🎥 …Okay here’s the art of me as a Penguin
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🎥 Update: You draw yourself as a goofy penguin one time, and the compliments start rolling in
🎥 Pester thought I looked kinda like a Penguin.
So I drew myself as a furry..
Actually kinda helped with my quest of “how do I look hotter” cause now I’m not bald!!
(I was already a furry to be honest)
🎥 Reading the kind of positivity posts on Tumblr that make me think “Fuck I need to be more of a fat boy dyke you’re so right”
🎥 You’re selling corn?
On the cob?
Does it come with a side of butter?
🎥👍 We just got back from University
I have no clue how we’re going to focus on any of this work.
🅿️ Augh.. how the hell does scanning in film negatives work..
🎥 Actually, thinking about it.. we do have a bunch of Therian Alters in here..
You know how people age regress to deal with stress? Maybe for our system, it’s just being silly and letting the horse take the wheel.
🧲 C:
🎥 No Pots.. we’re not letting you front.
🧲 :C
🎥 Do you think.. maybe because Pester’s been infantilised their whole life, that’s the reason we don’t have any littles in our system?
Like we rarely ever age regress, and alters who remember as far back as when we where 5 years old are in their 20s now.
📺 We’re getting to wear a shirt and tie today! No suit yet, but we definitely need more variety in our shirt and tie combinations.
All our ties are red or brown.. it’s so limiting.
💿 And, most of the shirts don’t fit you.
📺 They’re all EVIL stomach hating shirts!!
🎥 Accidentally sent everyone to sniff Soapy while I was drunk..
Did she smell good? Come on I gotta know
🎥 Honestly it’s weird I still don’t get hungover. Must be cause I guzzle down a shit ton of water before bed.
〽️ I want sleep and nap
Play with string
Hehe
🎥 There’s like three people close enough to me here to talk to
I just use it to share rando thouhts and be weird hahwghahh
🎥 i love eating ice
Chew a sponge
🎥 getting drunk In the bath like a hot spring
I tucking love cider
Yeehaw
Love yourself before you wreck yourself
And I’ll be your next parents
In this life? No clue
Next life okay yeah sure I’ll fuck
Eyhhh
🎥👍 fucking drink
🏴☠️ JOELINTON GOT A GOAL!!! LETS FUCKING GO JOELINTON!!!!!
IT’S A 2-0 LETS GOOOOO
…Okay back to sleeping and drinking
Zzz…ZzzZz…
🏴☠️ I think I might fall asleep…
Newcastle’s winning though 🔥🔥🔥
…ZzzZzzzZzzz…
🏴☠️ Starting to get drunk. The £1 bag of cheese balls are out.
Jack and shit have happened I’ve just been getting even more stuffed on cheese balls and drunk.
Tonali got tripped but he’s back up again. Good lad.
Gordon fell on the floor, poor lad
BUT MURPHY’S COMING ON!! 🔥
🏴☠️ If you wanna know, I’m drinking a can of Strawberry and Lime Cider mixed with Lemonaid.
And the dog’s eating tissue paper off the floor.
OFF SIDE?? OFF SIDE…
Trippier was offside, fuck.
Me dad’s missed the bin with his second can of beer.
🏴☠️ Good fucking header from Dan Burn. You could really see every sweat particle drip down that man’s face.
Currently the Geordies are dominating this game.
FUCK BOTMAN’S DOWN got whacked in the head by a flying Portuguese.
But he’s walked it off. He’s fine
🏴☠️ Stuffed full of dinner, watching the footie. Petting the dog and just lying on my side. Chill as can be.
🔥🔥 OFF SIDE?? OFF SIDE?? 🔥🔥
Okay it’s off side.
I’m not even drunk yet.
BURN GOAL!!! BURN GOAL!! 🔥🔥🔥 LETS FUCKING GOOOO
🏴☠️ Newcastle Vs Athletico
Gonna have a pork dinner, drink something, have some cheese balls when I get bored out my mind.
Probably get drunker if we lose.
🎥 Is this the BPD? I think it’s the BPD.
I just feel like a monster and everyone prefers women, and I’ll never be accepted.
So I’m not doing good.
🎥 I dunno. I think we’ve always related to Goblins. They’re like, outsiders. Looked down upon. Kind of treated like non-humans, or forces of nature impossible to understand.
..Shit that’s just autism isn’t it? Goblins are autism. Fuck.