25, white, Scorpio, they/he, Peterborough, England, United Kingdom
butch, disabled, enby, ftm, lesbian, masc, system, ???
🎥You wouldn’t want someone walking into your house and judging your carpets.
So as long as how someone copes is working for them, and keeping them safe. You shouldn’t judge their curtains either.
🅿️You know I don’t think it matters if someone’s traumagenic or endo, as long as their alters are helping them and keeping everyone in the head safe, that’s all that’s important.
🅿️I don’t think it matters if someone’s origin is traumagenic or not. Like most of my alters are from trauma, but I also have a lot from when I was a child who was unable to fully express myself. Like shit, do we really need to undervalue alters made from joy and creativity?
💿They’ll get banned eventually.
There’s lot of stuff we can post about in the meantime.
Make sure not to look at anyone’s profiles or click on links!
💿YOU CAN!! I’M SHAKING YOU RIGHT NOW YOU LISTEN TO ME YOU WILL LOOK STUNNING!!
DON’T LISTEN TO WHATEVER IS TELLING YOU OTHERWISE BECAUSE YOU’LL LOOK GREAT AND FEEL GREAT!!!
GO WEAR WHAT YOU WANT!!! NOW!!
🅿️As a transmasc butch man thing myself, I find the place there to explore masculinity while not being a cis man really, comforting? Like there’s more of an acceptance of queer masculinity, without a pressure to “act straight/cis”. And learning queer history has helped me a lot.
🎥Okay so, as per my previous post.. I’m pretty sure my way of coping with my OCD and strong emotions from BPD has been venting like hell.
And that makes a lot of people really uncomfortable I think, and I overshare too much.. so yeah Twinote is probably gonna help a lot.
🎥Okay suddenly realising Twinote might be a great idea because instead of accidentally publically Embarassing myself by oversharing, I can post into the void to the other alters and it’ll just stick with us instead. WHICH SEEMS WAY HEALTHIER ACTUALLY
🎥So we where in the System tag on Tumblr, and someone mentioned this thing called Twinote?
It mimics Twitter but its made for note taking and nothing goes out onto the internet.
So immediately the actors started using it to pretend they’re famous (it’s kinda cute tbh)
🎥Me and P have been trying to help bolster a bunch of our newer alters up, by drawing them and helping them express themselves.
And it’s like, really nice?
Espesually because I think growing up, self-insertion was a huge taboo online.
🅿️It’s nice we’re hiding ourselves less.
🎥Can someone report the bots below? There’s a couple spamming stuff
🅿️I think it’s really funny that by being best friends with an amazing fox girl as a teen she infected me with the fox, and now I have not one but TWO fox alters.
Foxing out is an important part of mental health did you know that?
🎥Thank god for PCOS and having 14+ alters now
estrogen was a misery and now I can be autistic in public
🅿️I found this old alter from I think 2011, and I think he’s going to be really useful around here actually.
Like I was getting anxious this morning about being late, so he took over and started getting everything ready in a prepared and orderly fashion. It really helped.
🅿️I can’t believe I didn’t realise sharing an ex-fictive alter’s source could be upsetting to them.
Like, no wonder he blew up on me and started deleting my posts. It was kinda like sharing who his source was, was like telling everyone his deadname? Augh, I’m stupid.
🅿️??? And being stupid is awesome actually, because you can turn your brain off and rest. And someone smarter than you can give you hugs like you’re their silly little dog. And everything’s okay
🅿️??? I love when a girl says words I don’t know like decohedron and my brain just glosses over them and I go “omg you’re so funny” and then the imaginary girl pats my head or something that’d be great
🅿️??? I think I’m some kind of version of P?? Maybe?? Like mixed with a couple other of the alters??
Fil came in for a bit to be hypersexual, and then it’s just been me being blurry??
I gotta get to sleep, I’m not a fan of being alone.. Where’d everyone go?
But my god what would I give to get to be a mentally ill trans woman’s fat boy toy, and fall asleep on her lap, and listen to her talk about her special interests for hours like she was a video essay and I the uninformed rube who knows nothing about calculus and can barely read
🅿️There’s an alter in here who likes cars. I must take notes on what kind.. maybe watch some videos on cool vintage cars.
I get the vibe it doesn’t like more modern cars, or sports cars. Definitely doesn’t like most cars past the early 2000s
Interesting.. interesting..
🅿️I was FPing a while ago this cute trans girl who’s my bestest bestest friend of all time, and the feelings are back.
Pretty sure I’m still Aromantic I don’t get crushes, I just get BPD style attached to girls on the internet and start clawing up the walls
🅿️I think a lot of them are like, joint at the hip with me being autistic. Like a whole bunch of them are related to special interests I used to have, or based off characters I got fixated on as a child, and it’s nice to let them show up and just hang out? It’s so chill
🅿️Okay so I was looking into BPD more right, I’m totally clueless by the way be nice.
But suddenly today I feel awesome and I’m rambly and I love my friends and life is so great everything’s so great, and is this normal? Is this normal?????
🅿️When there isn’t some asshole teacher yelling in your ear and you’re at a University where nobody gives a fuck as long as you’re not an asshole?
Honestly fucking awesome I love being autistic
🅿️I swear like, giving into my base instinct and being more honest with myself, and having alters who are okay with being visibly autistic, has been so good for me lately?
Like, I think being okay with being weird means being okay with being myself. And it’s really nice.
🅿️Thinking about how I got obsessed with this trans fox girl I’ve known since I was a teen online.
She’s great by the way, I just think it’s funny how she’s created not one but two fox alters in my head at this point.
And one of them looks suspiciously like her… Hm..
🅿️I find it an interesting puzzle looking through my old work, cause I end up picking out the alters. Which ones had their components mixed up and stitching them back together.
I can even notice that some alters had past lives as previous alters from my childhood. Interesting.
🅿️I think I probably shoved that shit so far down most of my life that a lot of them could only come out through fiction. And then when my mental health got really bad, I noticed suddenly I wasn’t turning the character off. And they where actually people I had to live with.
🅿️Appointment for moved from tomorrow to the 22nd, oops.
We would’ve missed our University class anyways if it didn’t get moved anyways.
🅿️This might be petty, but I think I’m going to put out into the world an insane level of woobification for all trans girls.
Like, immediate princess treatment. I don’t care if you ran over a dog in 2006 girl you’re a princess to me and the dog deserved it actually
🎥No but like seriously. The difference in energy when a trans woman gets a hate campaign against her compared to a cis person, and how some people interperate everything she says as evil??? Oh my god.
You do not know this woman?? You do not know her.
🅿️Okay so while we where sleep failing last night, I got told some random callout shit about a trans youtuber I do not know on a personal level, and it was kinda just boggling my mind looking at it all from an outside perspective.
Did I really used to care about this stuff??
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CLOSE YOUR EYYESSS CLOSE YOUR EYES LITTTLE DARRLINNGG GO TO SLEEEEP TO GO SLEEEEP SOMETHING SOMETHING SOMETNING