Supporter Aug 2025
31, white, Cancer, he/they, Angola, New York, United States
bi, demi, disabled, ftm, masc, neuro, queer, ???
At new job and I have a cold. Going to meet up with a guy after work and I have a cold. Can't breathe and yet can still smell the potency of chicken broth through my mouth. Wtf cold.
And then blocked same day. Is surprisingly common place. Why am I even doing this...
Why is it I keep Matching and Enjoying people from Canada? Its not a good time to leave the states and come back as a trans person dammit.
I'm so fucking anxious excited anxiety
How long does it take for a gyno to complete on boarding to start scheduling. Its been at least a month.
With the difference between FwB and relationship. I understand not exclusivity. I understand agreeing to it. I think I'm lost on how emotionally different it is.
I have been flirting with mostly guys named James. Wild consideration.
I just wanna be held and cuddled. To feel comfortable being open and vulnerable with someone.
Yeah too bad I'm a traumatized bastard lol
Wanna squish and be squished. And hopefully it leads to making out.
I got fwb broken up with. Still hurts. Like wowie how do you go to not sucking each other's faces and such?
Has begun. Other depression has intensified. Desire to live lessened. Hearing that they want to close down the government over trans topics (adults not being allowed hrt) lessened will to live further.
Off topic. Adhd sucks. What doesnt suck.
My cats.
Almost better than chocolate.
Almost.
Chocolate is much more consistent and reliant in delivery.
I miss the feelings of new beginnings, start of new energy, good vibes and hope.
There is so little to hope for on grand scales now a days.
My heart hurts.
I am tired of them already lol only been on them about a month ish. I am have gotten stood up and ghosted more than I have been laid. (Laid zero times)
It has given me the depression.
All the attention I'm getting how ask i still managing to be railed 0% of the time?
Lonely kinda cuddley. Like hold me while we sleep.
On dates/hook ups. Why say you're interested agree to meet up time and date ect only to be ghosted and ignored.
Feeling lonely
Head recently for the first time. Unannounced cum in mouth.
The only thing I minded was the texture. How can it be slippery and sticky at the same time?
Rsd is like being memory foam instead of a bubble.
You feel the imprint of the experience instead of it just bouncing off of you.
A doctors place to call me back for an appointment to get on birth control, manage atrophy and do the smear of pap.
Meanwhile I have the desire to just be taken and have to wait stewing in horny frustration.
Alas...
Vaginal atrophy has thrown a cramp in my new whore lifestyle.
Now I have to make phone calls for doctors instead of dates.
I wanted to get railed damnit
I can whore it up safely now. Positive vibes.
I am a homebody living with my parents. With the dating apps I have to now have to stay safe by telling parents where I am headed. But also somehow non awkwardly tell them I'm going out without giving too much away.
How does one do that
On my dating app journey I'm getting hit up by folx mostly 10+ years older than me. At any point is it concerning?
Ocd issues apparently apply to dating apps.
Brains suck.
New to dating apps in general the RSD be real. Feeling unwanted. Too many people.
And desiring to be Squished.
Weather is getting into cuddle territory so must be accommodating to cats.
In a system meant to break you down and push you. I am just so tired of being different. Tired of working and having nothing left for anything else. There is nothing left.
Incredibly cuddley
Wanna be horny with me?
A workout buddy
But my right arm is taking much longer than my left in terms of the first 3 days of healing. I am irritable in response. And my brain is flat lining like a floundering fish.
I have no idea what to do with myself and I fetal position in bed all day causing my cat Al to mewl at me in attempts to get me out of bed because he's concerned and I feel guilty because what am I supposed to do?