20, white, Pisces, She/her They/them, Bunnell, Florida, United States
dyke, fag, gnc, lesbian, mtf, neuro, sapphic, therian
I finally got my license. I can DRIVE now. It's all uphill from here, surely.
I feel like my brain is overclocked, I haven't had many self-destructive thoughts lately and it's been a really nice change of pace, I'm starting to think that while depression was bad, the ADHD was much, much more detrimental. But like... It's all gone??? Norepinephrine is wild.
for like, driving n stuff
I put it off for a long time because my mom killed herself by ramming into a light pole but I'm stuck in the worst place in florida, so i NEED wheels.
passed the test first try with only 6 questions wrong out of 50, which felt nice.
tough times, supposedly.
haven't been able to find any jobs and the stress of it all has been making it very hard to do anything 'fun'
was up all night because I couldn't sleep
i don't even want to be happy anymore, i just want the suffering to end.
those bastards took my blood
i frew up from the nausea...
i been stabbededededededed
🩸🩸🩸🩸🩸🩸🩸🩸🩸
finished a video and I feel happy with myself :3
next one will hopefully be even better than the first
stab me for luck!
I should post them individually then stitch them together after they're all done!
personally I like this approach, because it lets me do this every time I finish one :3
https://youtu.be/dOAHMFxjQpQ
a bit less effort, but there was less stuff I could do for the bit.
my video hit 105 views in 3 days I don't know if I should be excited for it or what
ok ok ok question, is it better if I:
🔪: keep uploading small <1 minute clips in a playlist with a grand edit at the end (when I can make 10 minutes)
or 🌀: just upload the grand edit in months
i really don't know if I'm built for it, honestly. It feels like everyone in my family is pushing me for it but I need so many buoys to stop myself from drowning. I like free will, but I don't like it forced upon me, y'know?
ska-roo
Nightmares? Stress dreams? Even after he's dead and gone, he lives on in my nightmares. I keep having this fear that it means he might still be alive and out there himself, like he faked his death for laughs. It unnerves me.
i am
such a hungry bitch right now
literally just a medium pizza
i beggue 🥺
I feel like every time I've tried making an account on there it bans me outright for some mysterious reason that I don't ever get to know. I never got past the profile and it gave me a ban for breaking the community guidelines???
both weed vapes are fucked, i am soon to be stuck sober, and I'm *not* happy about it.
women...
try and make another edit segment for my upcoming video, hopefully it'll be as good if not better than the first one. it was a little discouraging the last time I posted it since it felt like it got 0 engagement, but maybe I just need to roll the dice again.
So I've held the belief that retail is eternally hell and that I'd never work a retail job again in my life, but I'm thinking about it again and my only experience was with Dollar General, the literal Worst of the Worst when it comes to retail. Maybe I should work at a hot topic.
bit flowered up, feeling ok
i like what I did with my editing, but I don't know how quickly I can crank out edits like that for something like a 10 minute video. The 30 second clip took me about a day, and turned into 45ish seconds, but a third of that was empty space.
I'll make it out of here.
out of florida, specifically.
I really don't wanna stay here.
and with what I think wasn't much announcement whatsoever
i feel kinda good about that :3
also my friend said the video was awesome, so I'm feelin kinda ok
i did my project (previous post), I choose to celebrate with substance abuse
but like, small, cuz i wanted to finish something today.
uhhh if you comment a death threat at least make it funny
lycansbubscrie or whatever
https://youtu.be/3OrBBU9X7OU
an editing project
I'll post my first segment when it's done if I can handle it
why my dad started pushing everyone he knew away. I think he wanted everyone to hate him before he died so that no one would miss him, so he wouldn't hurt anyone when he "sped up the process". I don't think he succeeded though. Everything he did to make people hate him hurt more.
psych
i just want to nap
until all of this stuff ends;
watch the sun explode.
are people just... meaner, recently? Like, much ruder over the smallest things, sometimes just for the sport of it?
it's been getting to me, I'll admit.
>apply for job
>not hiring
reaaaaally shouldn't be a regular thing.
Seriously, are people just turning their hitmarkers off? Feels fucked up opening T4T to see people just opening fire on a group of people in the community for the sake of making some controversial post trying to crucify them.
from deltarune
but like, if she was a fox
Get IN the way!
I'm committing vehicular man-burger helper!