31, caucasian, Pisces, She/her/they/them, Fort Wayne, Indiana, United States
fluid, mtf, pan, poly, queer
Pre-marital activities happening and we needed more lube, so my gf applies some. I ask for some and we just exchange it by rubbing hands together and we started joking/laughing about giving each other the strangest handjobs so much that we nearly forgot we were mid coitus 😅
Went from spending every other weekend together to seeing each other through the week, both of us reworked our work schedules to see each other more, we gave each other our passwords for our phone locks, she's set as my background, and I'm pretty sure she made me a scarf.
I keep wanting to say it, almost letting it slip when I kiss her goodbye, but i take it kind of seriously and nobody else ever has, they just use me until they're bored. I want to tell her, but if she says it back a part of me won't believe her, and I don't want that for us.
Queer romance is dating a girl for a month and only just now getting her number because we usually just message on discord or steam 😂 but now I get to set personal ringtones and text tones and stuff :3
Fucking everyday I've been waking up like a damned teenage boy iykwim. I'd almost entirely lost my drive, even when I had 3 pretty girls in bed with me, I mostly just bottomed, but now I'm suddenly back into topping again and like???? I know she's hot af, but damn body, be cool
Sitting watching helluva boss with my gf, got to an episode where Moxie sang a very sweet love song for millie, and I mentioned it was a cute song and the little squeak of agreement she let out, pretty sure we're both helpless atp, just wondering who's gonna say it first tbh
I got her one because I had to cancel and I felt super bad about it and wanted to show I was still thinking of her. And when I came over to get some stuff she gave me and give her her bear, she gave me a surprise teddy bear she won from a crane game at the mall. She's so sweet
Like, this girl is so fucking pretty, she's sweet, she's cool af, she likes to bake and crochet and play pokemon, she keeps catching me off guard and cracking these fucking terrible jokes and everytime I think "jfc I **** you" before shaking my head like an etcha-sketch
Okay, so, fuck going slow. I mean, arguably I'm still going slower than I usually go, like, it's been a whole month and we aren't confessing undying love and fealty or moving in together so there's progress, but I did show her the playlist and ask her to be my gf ^-^
A swirling mind and a fluttering heart, I know I should sleep but I can't seem to part, with all the images of you lying close to me, my only reprieve let me dream of your memory
Gonna try to keep it around 50 tracks because that keeps it around 3 hours which is perfect for her long trips. Not that I expect it'd be listened to often, but y'know, I try to be thoughtful and stuff
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Gonna give a few listens to be sure it's good enough
Fuck...oh well lol
I've always just rushed into relationships, but now I'm actually scared of it. I don't really know how to go slow, but I can't endure another heart break. I find myself feeling happy and waking up earlier, and I'm scared of when that ends, when I'll be found on a floor again.
She stayed the night, but we just watched the entirety of gachiakuta in one go, and fell asleep to space dandy lol woke up and cuddled for several hours, talked about plans and potential "what ifs", and overdosed on sapphic bottom energy 😂 she's so pretty though T-T dude wtf
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Sharing playlists, staying up too late just to keep talking, talking to all of your friends, family, and coworkers about her, being equal parts nervous and hopeful, recognizing the selfless yet self destructive habits in each other and keeping each other okay, y'know, as friends
Sure, I got over it quickly, but I can't let myself rush into another bad situation. Even if I find myself smiling when we talk, even if the first thing either of us do when we wake up is text the other. I can't give myself away again so easily. I'll stay guarded in her garden.
For never saving pictures of me unless they were nudes, for ignoring my feelings, for making everything about your own shit, for treating me like an optional object to play with when you felt like, for lying to me, for confirming all my fears. Sort your fucking priorities dipshit
Otherwise I'd not be having a super great time, but luckily I remembered I'm a fucking God, I don't need anything or anyone to get by, and I'll do whatever the fuck I want. I'm better by myself anyway.
Those bites were too damn hard to be gone this soon, I don't even drink water, who took my bruises from me?? 😭 also why doesn't the healing factor work on my fking joints, specifically this one knee???
Every thought is aimless and every word meaningless. A million things to say, and somehow still speechless. I think maybe I'm tired again, but still so restless. My body keeps moving, but my heart feels worthless
You should totally attach your personal feelings to songs and make them revolve around people, in no way ever could this possibly be a bad idea, especially for songs you really like, nothing bad will ever happen and you will definitely be able to hear it normally at all times. 👍
Coming home to a three way is great, but coming home to see your two favorite people peacefully cuddling in their sleep in a valley of plushies is peak imo; I genuinely can't express how much I love this,they're so fking cute and I'm so glad I get to share in these little moments
That's it, that's the post