22, kernowyon, Capricorn, she/her,
disabled, dyke, lesbian, mtf, neuro, sapphic, woman
Friends, Transes, Countrypeople, lend me your ears
I still require individuals to communicate with. Trying to find new friends.
I like hema, working on a suit of gothic plate armour and I am a historian.
Railway, medieval classics are interests.
Feel free to dm me.
So, we have established basic stuff.
Kernowyon people are also, the ones who have done some cool stuff.
Trains are the big thing, invented by a Richard Trevithick.
Sir Humphrey Davy was also Kernowyon.
And finally:
Any questions feel free to ask me! Have a great day.
I doubt many if really any here know what Kernowyon is. Thats common. So I figured id do some posts on it.
Who are we?
Kernowyon refers to a Brythonic Celtic speaking people, located in the south west of modern England.
We are the people King Arthur is said to have ruled.
If anyone out there is interested in discussing medieval arms and armour, or history with a medievalist turned railway historian.
Bcs I need some gosh darn friends. Im in the uk so, its like half 2am posting this (I need sleep ngl)
Took my first step towards HRT today. Ordered a blood test kit that will be used for a baseline.
When I first came out, it was 2021, my mum told me to wait until I was 20 to do it (I was 18)
Well she got what she wanted, plus two extra years out of the fear id dissapoint her.
Helping GF not flunk out on assignments hours who up?
Mfw she vague posts about me not reaching out (I have been busy)
I love cheese. I cannot stop eating it. Cheese is the goat. Call me the cheese gremlin the way I make it vanish.
My practice sword broke 😔
How else will I protect the realm
All I can think about is how much I love my gf.
I cannot wait to see her in March and I cannot wait to eat copious amounts of sushi with her.
My gf is literally like an embodiment of Aphrodite. I feel like Sappho of Lesbos every time I look at her the way I wanna make really gay poetry.
Call me sappho of Lesbos the way looking at her divine perfection gonna make me faint.
Seriously, girl looks like a Hellenic statue. I love my damn gf.
Tldr: She is really really pretty
Every time I see her face, or a message from her or anything she makes me smile.
That is all. I love my gf :3
So, I had a dream, in that dream everything from 2022-present never happened. Good right? No!
My current partner, out of my life, most of my friends out of me life.
Locked into a three point abusive situation.
My mum still alive.
My online peusdo-father figure.
My ex gf.
Why does it hurt so god damn much. I am not even on E but its like I have too much emotion.
I seek comfort and get two words. I apologise for taking up any degree of space.
All I want is to be told it will be ok, or shown I have value. But, that feels too much.
I noticed it seems to feel I am the one starting all the conversations with my friends
Somehow that is making me feel lonelier then if I had just had no one to talk to at all.
Seeing those I care about happy and living their best lives as a distant observer is such a weird feeling.
I want to feel anger or joy but its just a dull ache that life is passing me by and nothing I can do seems to change that I am sat on the sidelines.
Wishing people recognised the effort I put into stuff.
That is all.
I should probably do that.
If anyone is curious. Cornishwoman here, into Hema, qualified historian, I enjoy railways and their histories.
Probably know too much Cornish history ngl. Planning on moving to greater toronto area long term (probs like 2028 bcs time)
I wish I could start hema proper but ya girl is literally unable to join the local practice due to spaces.
Guess imma just continue to self teach.
I live in the middle of nowhere, tiny village. Kinda scared to visit my gf next year in Toronto.
God had to nerf me with a fear of big cities.
It is 3am on a saturday. That is all. Feeling the time tonight.
Forgor this place existed for a while. Hope everyones doing good.
Help, I feel like a boomer completely unable to comprehend this niche aspect of technology