21, caucasian, Sagittarius, He/him, Avon, OH, United States
androg, fluid, ftm, masc, neuro, queer
ITS GETTING EVEN BETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS THE BEST MOOD BOOST FOR TODAY!!!!!! OH MY FUCKING HELL!!!!!!!
That’s the whole post THERES 2 PEOPLE IN MY STATE CLOSE TO MY AGE N RELATIVELY CLOSE DISTANCE!!!!! THIS IS AMMMMAAAAAAAAZZZZZIIINNNNGGGG WONDERFUL AMAZING!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS AMAZING MULTIPLED BY 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So my work brought a taco food truck bc we like hit the minimum participation for a survey and the smi serious joke is “if we get food poisoning we show up tomorrow and get through it together” lmao so like I might die it’s not good but I’m laughing about it rn no way round it
You know you really feel a sense of community when you and another human are mutually bitching about the same inconvenience it is very nice communal mutual bitching and complaining needs to be a thing more often
CW **Genitals are slightly mention**
Alright I’m not someone opposed to like being slightly wet but the fact that you can shower n then not even 5 minutes later it returned n just stays there n not stop that pisses me off bc then my underwear is wet n wet underwear is horrible
Okay so like gay panic is a real thing like a truly real thing bc explain to me why this really cute guy who I’ve been talking to regularly is now making me a bit tongue tied in an attempt to like science experiment idk but brain is short circuiting in the gay panic is real fuck
Okay so slight sarcasm but
If the fuckers would just make some adult clothes as soft as newborn or baby clothes then we wouldn’t have like so many issues like please and also can we get cute prints like that like I wanna wear woodland creatures too
I liked history when we were like in tribal society and shit but now I am at the point I want to rip my textbook in half bc all it fucking is is an empire beginning then war n dying wtf I want to be done I am sick of this n am so irritable n pissed n there’s a damn test tomorrow
Have you found a good way to log pain in terms of what was happening and when and how bad physical symptoms wise? I’ve started physical there n need to start keeping track n haven’t figured out a good chart layout if you know of a way pls message me
The fact that it’s still not wide known so there are like semi continuous post discussions and parallels between people is very fun to watch and see I think
I am grateful that my previous professor I’m dog sitting for understand that I double booked myself n have to return to work a few hours after the run down
I am grateful my physical therapist was very accommodating in letting me keep routine
I am grateful for @Rodeo & @torch
I hadn’t thought about my ex in a long time but I realized that this week 2 years ago is when we met in the psych ward n I remembered what happened n getting up to vote despite… things but I thought about them n I remembered thxgiving with them last year this week feels heavy now
He told me to let him know what food I would like stocked my mind is now blank on food I like so if anyone has suggestions feel free to message me
Sooooo me and A Human exist we simply exist and bc of this reason I had yet to say the word love to them so I bite my tongue n tonight they said it to me first in the “I really like you” meaning but they really like me 😊😊 yay we exist in our own way n it’s perfect to me n them
Issue I am in pain tomorrow I have work n then I’m scheduled to see my dad n this time sensitive main thing I feel like no matter what ill over exert myself n bc of that rn i just paralyzed doin nthn so pls someone who gets pain n paralyzation come into my dm tell me what to do
So okay my coffee shop I camp out at is havin their Halloween party in 3 hours issue is I did not pack properly clothes wise I do have my costume also I need to do homework but instead I tried to sleep n I uncomfy sensory wise someone pls who get this come in my dm tel me do pls
So here the thing logically Ik I disabeled due to some mental illnesses n the chronic pain etc but I still have the mentality of I’ll be fine n won’t need a ton of rest ya no I wrong bc ow and so exhausted n pain n everything today after last night (regret nthn) but it hard 2day
So I went to a Scooby doo themed Halloween party (not stay there Halloween will be another post) but I was saying that I was a cute Scooby bc Scooby is sacred n will not be sexy that’s not fair to him mom said that I would run into a sexy Scooby bc nthn sacred WRONG NO SEXY SCOOB
I was a fucking idiot bigger than an idiot bc I start dog sitting Thursday but I also needed next Saturday off so I told my boss I could work Thursday not thinking and now I have to try and find someone to swap shifts with me FUCK FUCK FUCKING HELL I HATE MYSELF RN
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Sooo like pain right horrible pain to where I realized I couldn’t go to my coffee shop for homework but I still went to the store… well that store had candy on sale one thing led to another n I just make 75 Halloween goodie bags n now I feel even more exhausted n pain… I not okay
So like I over did it bc of work n I napped n took an extra pain med n I still want to scream bc of BUT I have a insane amnt homework to do n planned to go to my fav coffee shop idk what to do this all hurts but I truly truly need to get this homewrk done n I no work well at home
So I very very much over did it but in this case I had no choice or say in the matter bc it was work n I did take a break but that break was me sobbing on the bathroom floor for the second time still feeling like I needed to cry when I went back so like my emotions n pain it bad
Being a sensitive empath really fuckin sucks rn bc I checked in a cat n ended up being euthanasia n then I didn’t like mess up mess up but a coworker who is a position above me talked to me n tell me why I go in the bathroom n sob n now take a break to continue sobbing n breaking
That’s the post I overdid it I felt like I could accomplish things emotionally organizing n cleaning wise my body is now screaming at top volume at me… this isn’t going to be good tomorrow or tonight 😔 just want to stop feeling n being so limited in what I can do n get done
I know he meant nothing by it in the slightest calling me while he’s tired n sick n Ik logically he’s not predatory and like Ik all of this but rn I feel triggered purely bc a situation very similar has occurred n my Brain immediately drew parallels nthn happened but brain edge
Okay so let me get this straight my boss lets it slip that I’m severely underpaid so I gather the courage and message her to meet abt my wage I get no reply so I check my messages… her response is the 👍 reaction emoji uh wtf
Therapist or something and told me there was something who could help my chronic pain and it was what body builders or someone used pls message me again your message is buried and I didn’t screenshot or save it 🤦🏻♂️
See the issue is I’ll feel emotionally better to a degree n want to accomplish things in like org. N cleanin bc my brain is chill lmao meanwhile my body is screaming and crying bc of the amnt of pain it in which defeats the ability to do what I want to n I not master art of adapt
Can life just fucking fuck off for the day okay I am already on a thread ready to meltdown so like life just fuck off for today leave me the hell alone let me exist and stop having things happen stop letting things happen and leave me the hell alone
Idk if it 17 but I sayin 17. Lmao so executive dysfunctioning has been doin it thing causing me to go to my coffee shop after work n nap @7 n sit till 12:20 midnight when the paper due tom n I committed sin n used ChatGPT 4 format there more but limit characters it more insane
I like this app layout don’t get me wrong n ik you can have it so you don’t see the nsfw posts n like I don’t mind seeing them and sometimes I like them but occasionally I wish that there was like a black screen you tapped if you wanted to see it bc the amnt of feral on here fuck
When the autism is not okay I can get on edge and agitated bc my routine has been changed that is how I feel now and I need to work I need to get this shit done but rather my brain is hyper focused on the noise and sounds n the fact that the routine has changed n now is freaking