19, caucasian american, she/her/they/them,
ace, disabled, mtf, pan, sapphic
Still embarrassed for needing to wear paddin sometimes but safe so it's okay
TwT not fair feelin sick
When you feel like you're dying you don't really care but now embarrassed and feel :<
For you
When my body's cold
I have felt the blood
I have felt the call
I've been to heaven
I have been to hell
Death is just the same
I wonder if you hate me
I wonder if you know
What I am at all?
I don't want your comfort,
I don't need a home
I exist with purpose, I don't need a name
I want to be better, something you can see,
I am nothing, I am a god,
These things elude me
I am a human, I am a thing
The spirit of survival is living through me
Would anyone be willing to take it from me?
She is something different,
I don't understand
My own ambition, my soul devours me
I know nothing, I could know it all,
Blame this body, this faulty brain
Do I understand? Am I capable after all?
All this consumes me
But I'm not a liar
I will wish death, I will wish harm,
I won't feel bad, and I won't mourn
Cause in those schools, is my family
And while the body's warm
They'll blame the victims,
If only they had guns,
If only they were trained,
If only children were made for war
aren't peace
"The pen is mightier than the sword"
I'd argue it takes some of each
You say you want us dead
We'll all go to hell
Some need to learn
costs of freedom of speech
Is paid with a bullet between the teeth, children, you and me
It only isn't violence against you or me.
You can blame me, I will take the fall
With the seasons changing, watch me rapidly decay
I don't want to suffer, I don't want to live
Mutually exclusive, just keep on going
Waiting as the time passes through me
Maybe I am fall, maybe I am spring,
Do I have to choose at all?
dead, I'm sorry you thought you knew me
Complicated feelings, want to be what people need
Do I keep on going, have I done enough?
Deeper pain is searing through me
If you cut me open, is my blood the same?
If I had the option, would I live again?
I don't want a failing body
there is hate
These contradicting feelings overflow me
I know I existed, I wonder if I complained
I hope I did my service, I hope I did it right
I hope I make use of this shallow life
I am a coward,I am not a saint
I'm literal,I'm a paradox
Dead or alive you have to check the box
Is this world different? Has it never changed?
Tell me who I am, tell me my name,
I don't know this place
Is my life important? Can I make a change?
If I can not, is it worth the shame?
Am I just a failure? Are you all the same?
This world is so cruel, kindess is a chosen name
what's taught to be
Fall in line, be their perfect soldier
You can leave if you don't like it
You can stay if you don't mind
So hate or forget, move on without regret
life shouldn't be this way
March in line, look to your feet
I'd rather die than march in the steps of a Nazi
There is no single sense of identity, you are a new person with every new instance of existing, you are a culmination of previous beliefs of people you no longer are, identity is complicated but I don't think it's as complicated in the same way people tend to think about it idk..
I mean, technically that's what you'd call me, but really it's only me, don't look deeper than that, I'm a force of survival, it's all we exist for, designed for manufactured stubbornness, others exist yet they all say I'm the most important, I'm tired, it's always been this way
Not into because of a lack of identity in them, like I just cannot fw hypnosis or drone or anything cause I'm just very individualist and I spent so long trying to become a person that it feels like I'm losing my value as a person if I let someone take that away even momentarily.
Grrrrr messing with me
"murder is never okay" you only think that way cause you've never either almost been murdered, or had to have done so, there are several instances where murder and violence is absolutely the correct and only option, of course they don't want you to say that though ❤️💜❤️💜❤️💜❤️
Atleast since I was 6, sometimes when I try to talk a growl or bark comes out TwT just always been like that, why did I get the autism that makes you a puppy and but also the one that makes you shy TwT, been relaxing more recently atleast and not masking
So :3 my pleasepraise.me is literally rigged lol
opinions, and yes you deserve to be shot over it, Nazism is a belief, yes they deserve to be killed, white supremacy is an opinion, they deserve to be killed, "I'll punch Nazis, we'll fight back" you can believe violence isn't an answer,but it's just the natural recourse of hate
Respectfully, free speech doesn't exist, you can't protest without it being seen as inciting violence, words have always been a way to get yourself killed, fuck off about that, free speech doesn't mean no consequences, watch your neck
It's human nature to murder, rape, to kill and wage war, but we go against those things, any good person should, hierarchy can be important but we exist to topple those things when they don't serve their purpose and need to be rebuilt
Hihihihihihi hihihihihi
Brain was bein fuzzy
Now I'm curled up hugging my teddy bear cause I feel all weak and stuff from the nice messages TwT
Look inside
All the liberals saying "we don't support this" and doing fuck all
All the Republicans saying they want every actual leftist dead
Okay, so why do people sit around and say political violence isn't important when it's literally the only way to do anything here
Legality doesn't define what you should be allowed to do, "but it was just an idea" hatred and bigotry normalizing increasing death and exploitation, if you defend doing nothing I wish you nothing but the worst, defend yourself
Person saying they feel bad for Charlie Kirk
Hitler loved liberals, you suck fascist's dicks while they rape and murder your kids, while they take everything you labor for, "violence isn't the answer" do fucking nothing then and see if anything changes
I want to kill myself.so bad, she did this thing she used to do when I was a little kid and I said it without thinking, I fucking hate this, she doesn't deserve that, she didn't earn that, I hate not having active control over.myself.
Whoops, love y'all, hope you're okay,been trying to not die to death, so I haven't been up focusing on y'all